Why was i kicked out of this Christian communal home?

[canny]

Oh please, it was totally the man. I am not one of those women who are attracted to power. This wasn't a power place, nor was any of them on power trips.
It was just a Christian communal home i lived in a while back. They all loved the Lord very much. They just believed anything that even remotely resembled sex was a sin.

I guess me having feelings for the deacon seemed sinful because they thought of it as lust, and according to them, lust (sexual feelings) is a sin. Lust doesn't even mean sexual feelings, but thats another story all together.
Talk about a sexually repressed place. They wanted us to be like monks and nuns while we lived there.

That said, i never even hinted at anything sexual. I mentioned i had been dreaming of him lately, and that they were NOT sexual dreams, but he just went all silent for several seconds then closed the conversation asap.
I guess he heard the word sexual and a red flag went up.

I may have caused the deacon to feel something, i don't know. He seemed to freak out after i told him, avoided me like the plague, then two days later they gave me the boot.
The day i said goodbye i asked the deacon for a hug, He even seemed reluctant for that, but he let me, but pulled away asap when i kinda squeezed him for a second.

I even visited the place about a month later to see some girlfriends there, he spotted me, looked at me for a second then scurried away asap.

Was i that gross? hideous perhaps? People always told me i was an attractive girl, so i am hoping it wasn't that. lol
He did say his flesh eats eat up, so i am assuming that means he liked that i liked him, but thought it was a sin.
How sad is that?

No you were not gross or hideous,,,,,, It was that man that was gross and hideous inside..... he has no convinction ! or he would not worry one iota about a simple dream.

[Sadie101]

No you were not gross or hideous

Thank you.

It was that man that was gross and hideous inside..... he has no conviction ! or he would not worry one iota about a simple dream.

I wouldn't say he was gross and hideous inside. I wouldn't have fallen for him if he was.
I think possibly he may have liked the fact that i dreamt of him..a little too much..and it frightened him and he felt guilty. He did appear to be flattered when i told him, but then after, avoided me like i had leprosy.
So it has to be one or the other. Either he thought i was very undesirable, or i simply tempted him.

[canny]

Thank you.


I wouldn't say he was gross and hideous inside. I wouldn't have fallen for him if he was.
I think possibly he may have liked the fact that i dreamt of him..a little too much..and it frightened him and he felt guilty. He did appear to be flattered when i told him, but then after, avoided me like i had leprosy.
So it has to be one or the other. Either he thought i was very undesirable, or i simply tempted him.

But any woman can tempt him,,, its very very easy to do ,,,,,,

Would you have fallen for him if he was Gross and hideous inside,,, yes,, because he would not have shown it to you...

One thing I am most certain of,,, you dont have a problem...... get away from these people ............. !!!!

[Sadie101]

But any woman can tempt him,,, its very very easy to do ,,,,,,

Unless she was hideous and gross of course.
I think men have their limits. I wouldn't exactly say ANY woman can tempt them.

Would you have fallen for him if he was Gross and hideous inside,,, yes,, because he would not have shown it to you...

Trust me, he was not hideous or gross inside. I knew enough about him and was around him everyday for 5 months straight. This isn't just wishful thinking on my part.
He is just one of those Christians who think sexual feelings outside of marriage is evil. He basically had to flee from me.

One thing I am most certain of,,, you dont have a problem...... get away from these people ............. !!!!

I AM away from these people. Thing is, MOST hardcore fundie Christians think this way.

[canny]

Unless she was hideous and gross of course.
I think men have their limits. I wouldn't exactly say ANY woman can tempt them.



Trust me, he was not hideous or gross inside. I knew enough about him and was around him everyday for 5 months straight. This isn't just wishful thinking on my part.
He is just one of those Christians who think sexual feelings outside of marriage is evil. He basically had to flee from me.


I AM away from these people. Thing is, MOST hardcore fundie Christians think this way.

am the least hard core fundie on the forum,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but I know people quite well.

[Sadie101]

am the least hard core fundie on the forum,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but I know people quite well.

Elaborate please..??

[canny]

Elaborate please..??

Christianity does not make a person exempt from everything, we are not different in any way from the rest of humanity,,, and people Christian or not still react in the same way when under threat.

What a Christian has, is the knowledge of where they are going and the joy of who they are going to meet.

and yea,,, with all our faults and failings, we are invited

N o one, absolutely no one, simply because they are human,,, and they have feeling and emotion and dreams, is exempt

All they have to do is thier best is this life, and believe in what Christ did for them. Sometimes in life this is a tricky one, especially when we have our own lives and complications to deal with,,, He knows that too

We dun have to be cowed down ,, or deny that we have any kind of feeling whatsoever,, we were given them by God........... !!!!